Seems like so much has happened in the last couple of days. Have been through confusion, amazement, wonder, sadness, happyness , hopefullness .. everything .. don't even remember all the stuff .. Its like i am trying to figure myself out all over again .. Some random musings out of my mind ..
>> I find myself questioning "why do i blog" and "why i am hooked over blogging" over and over again .. Even though i have already written a post about it .. Is it that i don believe what i have written ?? It is that i find a respite from my loneliness here ?? But i don like to see my blog that way .. Blog is a place i luv , not a place i seek refugee.. oh , my heart , believe me .. u are not being a loser shying away from the world .. u are amazing and entertaining urself from the scores of ppl present out there on the net .. Ppl whom u might have never got a chance to meet in the real world.. every one of whom , in their own way, teaches something .. opens a window for a thought .. or just makes u laugh .. *sigh*.. Why the hell do i need to question everything ..
>> ppl die .. hmmm , sad .. how do they die .. what happens to their essence when they die .. all the thoughts in their mind .. the feelings they feel .. the ideas they have .. what happens to all of that?? .. is all of this just electric signals ?? produced by human mind .. like current which just stops flowing when u switch off the switch.. Am i too just current ?? flowing in this stupid body ?? the essence of me .. the ME which i so much fuss over .. hmmm , who knows .. its just hard to let go of the memories of those electric signals .. which never turn on again .. or do they .. like energy .. they might just change the form .. and enter a different body .. or diff bodies .. i guess i am in trance :) ..
>> Timeline is a good book .. i lost my copy somewhere .. one of the best science fictions that i have read ..
>> Some shit is happneing in India .. The nandigram rape thing .. i just don know what to say . why are things so shitty .. cummon, are we living in a democratic india or not .. economic issues aside, where is the sense of respect for the fellow being .. so much for Indianness and Indian culture .. And i feel shitty for i do no do anything but bitch about it .. and raise my hands and say .. what is happeneing .. someone do something .. what can i do .. when will things improve .. shit ... what the hell do i do .. except blog abt it .. and get angry and let my friends know .. hey look , i am an all aware girl .. and i am so morally right that i feel bad about i .. its shit ..
Most of the people, me included, can't be sure of performing any better than the ones up there are doing .. hell , we can' even solve the personal animosity withe our relatives and friends .. what the hell are we going to do when the animosities turn BIG .. Are we going to respond in a better way .. and that just brings me back o my original belief that humans are basically animal .. the animal instincts are all in there .. restrained by so called social norms and rules .. and comes out on the first occasion it can ..
And to think about it, no matter how inhuman Dr. Letcher is (of the "Silence of the lambs" fame, but u need to read "hannibal the cannibal" and "The Red Dragon" to know him more..) , he is actually correct .. and if the so called social norms and social fears are erased out of human mind, ppl are gonna turn ino hannibals .. living for their pleasure .. and their pleasure alone .. this is the law of nature .. waise , in some ways , i actually like Dr.Letcher
>> Indian Cricket .. a perect example of how we destroy something we love .. :)
>> I am going a lil bit into "waiting for the call" mode again .. lol .. its not too much right now though .. and errr, i'm kinna surprised by myself :) ... haah , but its fun ..
>> and well, i promised to tell about my new found bloggers .. not feeling much upto it .. but here u go ..
1) An american family - a soooo american family .. and a peek into their lives .. havn been much INTO it .. but its sweet ..
2)An american girl cabbie .. - Nice experiences .. good to know of a life which is sooooo different than ours .. havn read much of it though .. but am planning to ..
4) and here is someone i found today - looked decent on the first go .. will have to explore more to form any opinion but :)
and abt the book - Mystic river is ok .. a decent thriller mystery .. liked some parts of it quite .. also the bend and gray shades in the character .. planning to watch the movie too .. if its in IMDB top 100, it has to have something in it :)
But i am going to devote my one WHOLE post to shantaraam :)
1 comment:
ummmm, just a correction. It's Dr. Lecter, Hannibal Lecter. and not Dr. Letcher. And yeah, amazingly these negative characters are often quiet correct about society and man. Ever wondered why? I wondered somthing one day. Man, at the beginning of evolution used to wander naked (ummm, i guess it used to be). then, the trend of wearing clothes came coz the female species naked created lots of problems in men (again my guess, considering the parda is for women, and not men). And now slwoly we are again lossing the clothes. As small the clothes are, as open u are. Again, this is me seeing like that. Hippy culture saying that u got to do what u want to and be open, be in a state that u like to be. i wonder whether the coming generation won't mind being totally naked again. I wonder if man will go one complete circle of coming to the start with understanding the things it didn't at the start. oh, i started a new topic of my own. but, just felt like writing it here. maybe u will shed some thought to it :)
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