Of routines and schedules ....

Some things scare me - like routines and schedules.

Yes , they scae me shit. I overdo things in order to not fall in their grasps. lol. Ok, i'm crazy inside. And a NON-PERFECTIONIST.

There was a time - till very late when my non-perfection used to bother me and i used to try very hard to acheive the closest level of perfection that i could. Perfection in everything - maintaining my closet, taking the notes, spending my day- lol , even conversatiion. Like THIS is the rite kinda talk and THAT is a rite kinna walk. Lol. But now - i get scared shit if i feel that i am coming even anywhere close to being a perfectionist. I llike my house a little dirty and bikhra hua , my closet a bit untidy, my days a bit abnormal , my talks a bit randon, my q-papers & books a bit .. oops sorry , quite a bit scribbled :D .. hmmm , this feels good . A bit of scatteredness and randomness. Doesn it ? I think thats the beauty of life - its unpredictability. earlier i used to make my future plans. Now i don. I like it unplanned :) .. The only catch is what will i answer if my interviewer asks me - Where do u see urself 10 years down the line. Uhhhh, maybe in heaven .... SHIT HEAD.... arggggghhhhhh............... Why is this question even imp ?

i think - this is where my scare of routines and schedules emerge from - from set things. Makes me feel bandha hua. Hmmm - now u better keep that timetable away from me ... and gimme few scraps of paper instead. I wanna make a collage :) .. Yeah , i loooooooooove collages :) ...

And the most suitable lines to sum up this post are -

Katra katra milti hai
katra katra jeene do
zindagi hai .. behne do ...
pyaasi hoon main pyaasi rehne do ...
la la la la lala la la lala laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..............

:D :D